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I will not make the same mistakes that you did. I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery. I will not break the way you did, you fell so hard. Ive learned the hard way to never let it get that far. I cannot cry because I know thats weakness in your eyes. Im forced to fake a smile a laugh every day of my life. My heart cant possibly break when it wasnt even whole to start with. I watched you die, I heard you cry those nights in your sleep. I was so young, you should of known better than to lean on me. You never thought of anyone else, you just saw your pain. And now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing. Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk. Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I dont get hurt. Because of you, I find to trust not only me, but everyone around me. Because of you, I am afraid.
Since Ive lost you, im lost too. Sorry for the trouble that I put you and your heart through. God knows that I would do anything for part two or to be prayin for the day you come back to me, sayin that your forgive, give me another chance. Give me back your hands, give me back your touch. I dont ask for much. But i fucked up, i know i fucked up, i admit i fucked up. Now this other nigga lucked up. I was your down chick. you were my soldier. you were my gangsta, i was your shoulder. You were the pistol to my holster. I remember the love, right after the fights. You cant tell me you dont remember those nights. And if i would cry, then you would cry twice. To me you are the brightest star under sunlight. This is just a nightmare, so i blink twice, open up my eyes hopin you be in my sight. i remember the times, i wish i could bring them back. what you mean to me is what Cole mean to rap. I havent forgot about you up in the living room watching sports center, we were cookin dinner, i was such a sinner. but the lord is a forgiver. you know they say if you pray, then you can get your blessings ordered and delievered. i rememeber we would sit at home all day, you called me baby, i called you babe. my mama asked about you, my friends did too. and i know you probably wish you never met me, i just wish you never forget me. and let me tell you, please dont worry bout the nigga that i been with. no engagement can amount to yo friendship. all i can do is dream. damn.
